The Wendigo
Algernon Blackwood
1910
I
A considerable number
of hunting parties were out that year without finding so much as a fresh trail;
for the moose were uncommonly shy, and the various Nimrods returned to the
bosoms of their respective families with the best excuses the facts of their
imaginations could suggest. Dr. Cathcart, among others, came back without a
trophy; but he brought instead the memory of an experience which he declares
was worth all the bull moose that had ever been shot. But then Cathcart, of
Aberdeen, was interested in other things besides moose—amongst them the
vagaries of the human mind. This particular story, however, found no mention in
his book on Collective Hallucination for the simple reason (so he confided once
to a fellow colleague) that he himself played too intimate a part in it to form
a competent judgment of the affair as a whole....
Besides himself and his guide, Hank Davis, there was young
Simpson, his nephew, a divinity student destined for the "Wee Kirk"
(then on his first visit to Canadian backwoods), and the latter's guide,
Défago. Joseph Défago was a French "Canuck," who had strayed from his
native Province of Quebec years before, and had got caught in Rat Portage when
the Canadian Pacific Railway was a-building; a man who, in addition to his
unparalleled knowledge of wood-craft and bush-lore, could also sing the old
voyageur songs and tell a capital hunting yarn into the bargain. He was deeply
susceptible, moreover, to that singular spell which the wilderness lays upon
certain lonely natures, and he loved the wild solitudes with a kind of romantic
passion that amounted almost to an obsession. The life of the backwoods
fascinated him—whence, doubtless, his surpassing efficiency in dealing with
their mysteries.
On this particular expedition he was Hank's choice. Hank
knew him and swore by him. He also swore at him, "jest as a pal
might," and since he had a vocabulary of picturesque, if utterly
meaningless, oaths, the conversation between the two stalwart and hardy
woodsmen was often of a rather lively description. This river of expletives,
however, Hank agreed to dam a little out of respect for his old "hunting
boss," Dr. Cathcart, whom of course he addressed after the fashion of the
country as "Doc," and also because he understood that young Simpson
was already a "bit of a parson." He had, however, one objection to
Défago, and one only—which was, that the French Canadian sometimes exhibited
what Hank described as "the output of a cursed and dismal mind,"
meaning apparently that he sometimes was true to type, Latin type, and suffered
fits of a kind of silent moroseness when nothing could induce him to utter
speech. Défago, that is to say, was imaginative and melancholy. And, as a rule,
it was too long a spell of "civilization" that induced the attacks,
for a few days of the wilderness invariably cured them.
This, then, was the party of four that found themselves in
camp the last week in October of that "shy moose year" 'way up in the
wilderness north of Rat Portage—a forsaken and desolate country. There was also
Punk, an Indian, who had accompanied Dr. Cathcart and Hank on their hunting
trips in previous years, and who acted as cook. His duty was merely to stay in
camp, catch fish, and prepare venison steaks and coffee at a few minutes'
notice. He dressed in the worn-out clothes bequeathed to him by former patrons,
and, except for his coarse black hair and dark skin, he looked in these city
garments no more like a real redskin than a stage Negro looks like a real
African. For all that, however, Punk had in him still the instincts of his
dying race; his taciturn silence and his endurance survived; also his
superstition.
The party round the blazing fire that night were despondent,
for a week had passed without a single sign of recent moose discovering itself.
Défago had sung his song and plunged into a story, but Hank, in bad humor,
reminded him so often that "he kep' mussing-up the fac's so, that it was
'most all nothin' but a petered-out lie," that the Frenchman had finally
subsided into a sulky silence which nothing seemed likely to break. Dr.
Cathcart and his nephew were fairly done after an exhausting day. Punk was
washing up the dishes, grunting to himself under the lean-to of branches, where
he later also slept. No one troubled to stir the slowly dying fire. Overhead
the stars were brilliant in a sky quite wintry, and there was so little wind
that ice was already forming stealthily along the shores of the still lake
behind them. The silence of the vast listening forest stole forward and
enveloped them.
Hank broke in suddenly with his nasal voice.
"I'm in favor of breaking new ground tomorrow,
Doc," he observed with energy, looking across at his employer. "We
don't stand a dead Dago's chance around here."
"Agreed," said Cathcart, always a man of few
words. "Think the idea's good."
"Sure pop, it's good," Hank resumed with
confidence. "S'pose, now, you and I strike west, up Garden Lake way for a
change! None of us ain't touched that quiet bit o' land yet—"
"I'm with you."
"And you, Défago, take Mr. Simpson along in the small
canoe, skip across the lake, portage over into Fifty Island Water, and take a
good squint down that thar southern shore. The moose 'yarded' there like hell
last year, and for all we know they may be doin' it agin this year jest to
spite us."
Défago, keeping his eyes on the fire, said nothing by way of
reply. He was still offended, possibly, about his interrupted story.
"No one's been up that way this year, an' I'll lay my
bottom dollar on that!" Hank added with emphasis, as though he had a
reason for knowing. He looked over at his partner sharply. "Better take
the little silk tent and stay away a couple o' nights," he concluded, as
though the matter were definitely settled. For Hank was recognized as general
organizer of the hunt, and in charge of the party.
It was obvious to anyone that Défago did not jump at the
plan, but his silence seemed to convey something more than ordinary
disapproval, and across his sensitive dark face there passed a curious
expression like a flash of firelight—not so quickly, however, that the three men
had not time to catch it.
"He funked for some reason, I thought," Simpson
said afterwards in the tent he shared with his uncle. Dr. Cathcart made no
immediate reply, although the look had interested him enough at the time for
him to make a mental note of it. The expression had caused him a passing
uneasiness he could not quite account for at the moment.
But Hank, of course, had been the first to notice it, and
the odd thing was that instead of becoming explosive or angry over the other's
reluctance, he at once began to humor him a bit.
"But there ain't no speshul reason why no one's been up
there this year," he said with a perceptible hush in his tone; "not
the reason you mean, anyway! Las' year it was the fires that kep' folks out,
and this year I guess—I guess it jest happened so, that's all!" His manner
was clearly meant to be encouraging.
Joseph Défago raised his eyes a moment, then dropped them
again. A breath of wind stole out of the forest and stirred the embers into a
passing blaze. Dr. Cathcart again noticed the expression in the guide's face,
and again he did not like it. But this time the nature of the look betrayed
itself. In those eyes, for an instant, he caught the gleam of a man scared in
his very soul. It disquieted him more than he cared to admit.
"Bad Indians up that way?" he asked, with a laugh
to ease matters a little, while Simpson, too sleepy to notice this subtle
by-play, moved off to bed with a prodigious yawn; "or—or anything wrong
with the country?" he added, when his nephew was out of hearing.
Hank met his eye with something less than his usual
frankness.
"He's jest skeered," he replied good-humouredly.
"Skeered stiff about some ole feery tale! That's all, ain't it, ole
pard?" And he gave Défago a friendly kick on the moccasined foot that lay
nearest the fire.
Défago looked up quickly, as from an interrupted reverie, a
reverie, however, that had not prevented his seeing all that went on about him.
"Skeered--nuthin'!" he answered, with a flush of
defiance. "There's nuthin' in the Bush that can skeer Joseph Défago, and
don't you forget it!" And the natural energy with which he spoke made it
impossible to know whether he told the whole truth or only a part of it.
Hank turned towards the doctor. He was just going to add
something when he stopped abruptly and looked round. A sound close behind them
in the darkness made all three start. It was old Punk, who had moved up from
his lean-to while they talked and now stood there just beyond the circle of
firelight—listening.
"'Nother time, Doc!" Hank whispered, with a wink,
"when the gallery ain't stepped down into the stalls!" And, springing
to his feet, he slapped the Indian on the back and cried noisily, "Come up
t' the fire an' warm yer dirty red skin a bit." He dragged him towards the
blaze and threw more wood on. "That was a mighty good feed you give us an
hour or two back," he continued heartily, as though to set the man's
thoughts on another scent, "and it ain't Christian to let you stand out
there freezin' yer ole soul to hell while we're gettin' all good an'
toasted!" Punk moved in and warmed his feet, smiling darkly at the other's
volubility which he only half understood, but saying nothing. And presently Dr.
Cathcart, seeing that further conversation was impossible, followed his
nephew's example and moved off to the tent, leaving the three men smoking over
the now blazing fire.
It is not easy to undress in a small tent without waking
one's companion, and Cathcart, hardened and warm-blooded as he was in spite of
his fifty odd years, did what Hank would have described as "considerable
of his twilight" in the open. He noticed, during the process, that Punk
had meanwhile gone back to his lean-to, and that Hank and Défago were at it
hammer and tongs, or, rather, hammer and anvil, the little French Canadian
being the anvil. It was all very like the conventional stage picture of Western
melodrama: the fire lighting up their faces with patches of alternate red and
black; Défago, in slouch hat and moccasins in the part of the
"badlands" villain; Hank, open-faced and hatless, with that reckless
fling of his shoulders, the honest and deceived hero; and old Punk,
eavesdropping in the background, supplying the atmosphere of mystery. The
doctor smiled as he noticed the details; but at the same time something deep
within him—he hardly knew what—shrank a little, as though an almost
imperceptible breath of warning had touched the surface of his soul and was
gone again before he could seize it. Probably it was traceable to that
"scared expression" he had seen in the eyes of Défago;
"probably"—for this hint of fugitive emotion otherwise escaped his
usually so keen analysis. Défago, he was vaguely aware, might cause trouble
somehow ...He was not as steady a guide as Hank, for instance ... Further than
that he could not get ...
He watched the men a moment longer before diving into the
stuffy tent where Simpson already slept soundly. Hank, he saw, was swearing
like a mad African in a New York nigger saloon; but it was the swearing of
"affection." The ridiculous oaths flew freely now that the cause of
their obstruction was asleep. Presently he put his arm almost tenderly upon his
comrade's shoulder, and they moved off together into the shadows where their
tent stood faintly glimmering. Punk, too, a moment later followed their example
and disappeared between his odorous blankets in the opposite direction.
Dr. Cathcart then likewise turned in, weariness and sleep
still fighting in his mind with an obscure curiosity to know what it was that
had scared Défago about the country up Fifty Island Water way,—wondering, too,
why Punk's presence had prevented the completion of what Hank had to say. Then
sleep overtook him. He would know tomorrow. Hank would tell him the story while
they trudged after the elusive moose.
Deep silence fell about the little camp, planted there so
audaciously in the jaws of the wilderness. The lake gleamed like a sheet of
black glass beneath the stars. The cold air pricked. In the draughts of night
that poured their silent tide from the depths of the forest, with messages from
distant ridges and from lakes just beginning to freeze, there lay already the
faint, bleak odors of coming winter. White men, with their dull scent, might
never have divined them; the fragrance of the wood fire would have concealed
from them these almost electrical hints of moss and bark and hardening swamp a
hundred miles away. Even Hank and Défago, subtly in league with the soul of the
woods as they were, would probably have spread their delicate nostrils in
vain....
But an hour later, when all slept like the dead, old Punk
crept from his blankets and went down to the shore of the lake like a
shadow—silently, as only Indian blood can move. He raised his head and looked
about him. The thick darkness rendered sight of small avail, but, like the
animals, he possessed other senses that darkness could not mute. He
listened—then sniffed the air. Motionless as a hemlock stem he stood there.
After five minutes again he lifted his head and sniffed, and yet once again. A
tingling of the wonderful nerves that betrayed itself by no outer sign, ran
through him as he tasted the keen air. Then, merging his figure into the
surrounding blackness in a way that only wild men and animals understand, he
turned, still moving like a shadow, and went stealthily back to his lean-to and
his bed.
And soon after he slept, the change of wind he had divined
stirred gently the reflection of the stars within the lake. Rising among the
far ridges of the country beyond Fifty Island Water, it came from the direction
in which he had stared, and it passed over the sleeping camp with a faint and
sighing murmur through the tops of the big trees that was almost too delicate
to be audible. With it, down the desert paths of night, though too faint, too
high even for the Indian's hair-like nerves, there passed a curious, thin odor,
strangely disquieting, an odor of something that seemed unfamiliar—utterly
unknown.
The French Canadian and the man of Indian blood each stirred
uneasily in his sleep just about this time, though neither of them woke. Then
the ghost of that unforgettably strange odor passed away and was lost among the
leagues of tenantless forest beyond.
II In the morning the camp was astir before the sun. There
had been a light fall of snow during the night and the air was sharp. Punk had
done his duty betimes, for the odors of coffee and fried bacon reached every
tent. All were in good spirits.
"Wind's shifted!" cried Hank vigorously, watching
Simpson and his guide already loading the small canoe. "It's across the
lake—dead right for you fellers. And the snow'll make bully trails! If there's
any moose mussing around up thar, they'll not get so much as a tail-end scent
of you with the wind as it is. Good luck, Monsieur Défago!" he added,
facetiously giving the name its French pronunciation for once, "bonne
chance!"
Défago returned the good wishes, apparently in the best of
spirits, the silent mood gone. Before eight o'clock old Punk had the camp to
himself, Cathcart and Hank were far along the trail that led westwards, while
the canoe that carried Défago and Simpson, with silk tent and grub for two
days, was already a dark speck bobbing on the bosom of the lake, going due
east.
The wintry sharpness of the air was tempered now by a sun
that topped the wooded ridges and blazed with a luxurious warmth upon the world
of lake and forest below; loons flew skimming through the sparkling spray that
the wind lifted; divers shook their dripping heads to the sun and popped
smartly out of sight again; and as far as eye could reach rose the leagues of
endless, crowding Bush, desolate in its lonely sweep and grandeur, untrodden by
foot of man, and stretching its mighty and unbroken carpet right up to the
frozen shores of Hudson Bay.
Simpson, who saw it all for the first time as he paddled
hard in the bows of the dancing canoe, was enchanted by its austere beauty. His
heart drank in the sense of freedom and great spaces just as his lungs drank in
the cool and perfumed wind. Behind him in the stern seat, singing fragments of
his native chanties, Défago steered the craft of birch bark like a thing of
life, answering cheerfully all his companion's questions. Both were gay and
light-hearted. On such occasions men lose the superficial, worldly
distinctions; they become human beings working together for a common end.
Simpson, the employer, and Défago the employed, among these primitive forces,
were simply—two men, the "guider" and the "guided."
Superior knowledge, of course, assumed control, and the younger man fell
without a second thought into the quasi-subordinate position. He never dreamed
of objecting when Défago dropped the "Mr.," and addressed him as
"Say, Simpson," or "Simpson, boss," which was invariably
the case before they reached the farther shore after a stiff paddle of twelve
miles against a head wind. He only laughed, and liked it; then ceased to notice
it at all.
For this "divinity student" was a young man of
parts and character, though as yet, of course, untraveled; and on this trip—the
first time he had seen any country but his own and little Switzerland—the huge
scale of things somewhat bewildered him. It was one thing, he realized, to hear
about primeval forests, but quite another to see them. While to dwell in them
and seek acquaintance with their wild life was, again, an initiation that no
intelligent man could undergo without a certain shifting of personal values
hitherto held for permanent and sacred.
Simpson knew the first faint indication of this emotion when
he held the new.303 rifle in his hands and looked along its pair of faultless,
gleaming barrels. The three days' journey to their headquarters, by lake and
portage, had carried the process a stage farther. And now that he was about to
plunge beyond even the fringe of wilderness where they were camped into the
virgin heart of uninhabited regions as vast as Europe itself, the true nature
of the situation stole upon him with an effect of delight and awe that his
imagination was fully capable of appreciating. It was himself and Défago
against a multitude—at least, against a Titan!
The bleak splendors of these remote and lonely forests
rather overwhelmed him with the sense of his own littleness. That stern quality
of the tangled backwoods which can only be described as merciless and terrible,
rose out of these far blue woods swimming upon the horizon, and revealed itself.
He understood the silent warning. He realized his own utter helplessness. Only
Défago, as a symbol of a distant civilization where man was master, stood
between him and a pitiless death by exhaustion and starvation.
It was thrilling to him, therefore, to watch Défago turn
over the canoe upon the shore, pack the paddles carefully underneath, and then
proceed to "blaze" the spruce stems for some distance on either side
of an almost invisible trail, with the careless remark thrown in, "Say,
Simpson, if anything happens to me, you'll find the canoe all correc' by these
marks;—then strike doo west into the sun to hit the home camp agin, see?"
It was the most natural thing in the world to say, and he
said it without any noticeable inflexion of the voice, only it happened to
express the youth's emotions at the moment with an utterance that was symbolic
of the situation and of his own helplessness as a factor in it. He was alone
with Défago in a primitive world: that was all. The canoe, another symbol of
man's ascendancy, was now to be left behind. Those small yellow patches, made
on the trees by the axe, were the only indications of its hiding place.
Meanwhile, shouldering the packs between them, each man
carrying his own rifle, they followed the slender trail over rocks and fallen
trunks and across half-frozen swamps; skirting numerous lakes that fairly
gemmed the forest, their borders fringed with mist; and towards five o'clock
found themselves suddenly on the edge of the woods, looking out across a large
sheet of water in front of them, dotted with pine-clad islands of all
describable shapes and sizes.
"Fifty Island Water," announced Défago wearily,
"and the sun jest goin' to dip his bald old head into it!" he added,
with unconscious poetry; and immediately they set about pitching camp for the
night.
In a very few minutes, under those skilful hands that never
made a movement too much or a movement too little, the silk tent stood taut and
cozy, the beds of balsam boughs ready laid, and a brisk cooking fire burned
with the minimum of smoke. While the young Scotchman cleaned the fish they had
caught trolling behind the canoe, Défago "guessed" he would
"jest as soon" take a turn through the Bush for indications of moose.
"May come across a trunk where they bin and rubbed horns," he said,
as he moved off, "or feedin' on the last of the maple leaves"—and he
was gone.
His small figure melted away like a shadow in the dusk,
while Simpson noted with a kind of admiration how easily the forest absorbed
him into herself. A few steps, it seemed, and he was no longer visible.
Yet there was little underbrush hereabouts; the trees stood
somewhat apart, well spaced; and in the clearings grew silver birch and maple,
spearlike and slender, against the immense stems of spruce and hemlock. But for
occasional prostrate monsters, and the boulders of grey rock that thrust
uncouth shoulders here and there out of the ground, it might well have been a
bit of park in the Old Country. Almost, one might have seen in it the hand of
man. A little to the right, however, began the great burnt section, miles in
extent, proclaiming its real character--brulé, as it is called, where the fires
of the previous year had raged for weeks, and the blackened stumps now rose
gaunt and ugly, bereft of branches, like gigantic match heads stuck into the
ground, savage and desolate beyond words. The perfume of charcoal and
rain-soaked ashes still hung faintly about it.
The dusk rapidly deepened; the glades grew dark; the
crackling of the fire and the wash of little waves along the rocky lake shore
were the only sounds audible. The wind had dropped with the sun, and in all
that vast world of branches nothing stirred. Any moment, it seemed, the
woodland gods, who are to be worshipped in silence and loneliness, might
stretch their mighty and terrific outlines among the trees. In front, through
doorways pillared by huge straight stems, lay the stretch of Fifty Island
Water, a crescent-shaped lake some fifteen miles from tip to tip, and perhaps
five miles across where they were camped. A sky of rose and saffron, more clear
than any atmosphere Simpson had ever known, still dropped its pale streaming
fires across the waves, where the islands—a hundred, surely, rather than
fifty—floated like the fairy barques of some enchanted fleet. Fringed with
pines, whose crests fingered most delicately the sky, they almost seemed to
move upwards as the light faded—about to weigh anchor and navigate the pathways
of the heavens instead of the currents of their native and desolate lake.
And strips of colored cloud, like flaunting pennons,
signaled their departure to the stars....
The beauty of the scene was strangely uplifting. Simpson
smoked the fish and burnt his fingers into the bargain in his efforts to enjoy
it and at the same time tend the frying pan and the fire. Yet, ever at the back
of his thoughts, lay that other aspect of the wilderness: the indifference to
human life, the merciless spirit of desolation which took no note of man. The
sense of his utter loneliness, now that even Défago had gone, came close as he
looked about him and listened for the sound of his companion's returning
footsteps.
There was pleasure in the sensation, yet with it a perfectly
comprehensible alarm. And instinctively the thought stirred in him: "What
should I--could I, do—if anything happened and he did not come back—?"
They enjoyed their well-earned supper, eating untold
quantities of fish, and drinking unmilked tea strong enough to kill men who had
not covered thirty miles of hard "going," eating little on the way.
And when it was over, they smoked and told stories round the blazing fire,
laughing, stretching weary limbs, and discussing plans for the morrow. Défago
was in excellent spirits, though disappointed at having no signs of moose to
report. But it was dark and he had not gone far. The brulé, too, was bad. His
clothes and hands were smeared with charcoal. Simpson, watching him, realized
with renewed vividness their position—alone together in the wilderness.
"Défago," he said presently, "these woods,
you know, are a bit too big to feel quite at home in—to feel comfortable in, I
mean!... Eh?" He merely gave expression to the mood of the moment; he was
hardly prepared for the earnestness, the solemnity even, with which the guide
took him up.
"You've hit it right, Simpson, boss," he replied,
fixing his searching brown eyes on his face, "and that's the truth, sure.
There's no end to 'em—no end at all." Then he added in a lowered tone as
if to himself, "There's lots found out that, and gone plumb to
pieces!"
But the man's gravity of manner was not quite to the other's
liking; it was a little too suggestive for this scenery and setting; he was
sorry he had broached the subject. He remembered suddenly how his uncle had
told him that men were sometimes stricken with a strange fever of the
wilderness, when the seduction of the uninhabited wastes caught them so
fiercely that they went forth, half fascinated, half deluded, to their death.
And he had a shrewd idea that his companion held something in sympathy with
that queer type. He led the conversation on to other topics, on to Hank and the
doctor, for instance, and the natural rivalry as to who should get the first
sight of moose.
"If they went doo west," observed Défago
carelessly, "there's sixty miles between us now—with ole Punk at halfway
house eatin' himself full to bustin' with fish and coffee." They laughed
together over the picture. But the casual mention of those sixty miles again
made Simpson realize the prodigious scale of this land where they hunted; sixty
miles was a mere step; two hundred little more than a step. Stories of lost hunters
rose persistently before his memory. The passion and mystery of homeless and
wandering men, seduced by the beauty of great forests, swept his soul in a way
too vivid to be quite pleasant. He wondered vaguely whether it was the mood of
his companion that invited the unwelcome suggestion with such persistence.
"Sing us a song, Défago, if you're not too tired,"
he asked; "one of those old voyageur songs you sang the other night."
He handed his tobacco pouch to the guide and then filled his own pipe, while
the Canadian, nothing loth, sent his light voice across the lake in one of
those plaintive, almost melancholy chanties with which lumbermen and trappers
lessen the burden of their labor. There was an appealing and romantic flavor
about it, something that recalled the atmosphere of the old pioneer days when
Indians and wilderness were leagued together, battles frequent, and the Old
Country farther off than it is today. The sound traveled pleasantly over the
water, but the forest at their backs seemed to swallow it down with a single
gulp that permitted neither echo nor resonance.
It was in the middle of the third verse that Simpson noticed
something unusual—something that brought his thoughts back with a rush from
faraway scenes. A curious change had come into the man's voice. Even before he
knew what it was, uneasiness caught him, and looking up quickly, he saw that
Défago, though still singing, was peering about him into the Bush, as though he
heard or saw something. His voice grew fainter—dropped to a hush—then ceased
altogether. The same instant, with a movement amazingly alert, he started to
his feet and stood upright--sniffing the air. Like a dog scenting game, he drew
the air into his nostrils in short, sharp breaths, turning quickly as he did so
in all directions, and finally "pointing" down the lake shore,
eastwards. It was a performance unpleasantly suggestive and at the same time
singularly dramatic. Simpson's heart fluttered disagreeably as he watched it.
"Lord, man! How you made me jump!" he exclaimed,
on his feet beside him the same instant, and peering over his shoulder into the
sea of darkness. "What's up? Are you frightened—?"
Even before the question was out of his mouth he knew it was
foolish, for any man with a pair of eyes in his head could see that the
Canadian had turned white down to his very gills. Not even sunburn and the
glare of the fire could hide that.
The student felt himself trembling a little, weakish in the
knees. "What's up?" he repeated quickly. "D'you smell moose? Or
anything queer, anything—wrong?" He lowered his voice instinctively.
The forest pressed round them with its encircling wall; the
nearer tree stems gleamed like bronze in the firelight; beyond that—blackness,
and, so far as he could tell, a silence of death. Just behind them a passing
puff of wind lifted a single leaf, looked at it, then laid it softly down again
without disturbing the rest of the covey. It seemed as if a million invisible
causes had combined just to produce that single visible effect. Other life pulsed
about them—and was gone.
Défago turned abruptly; the livid hue of his face had turned
to a dirty grey.
"I never said I heered—or smelt—nuthin'," he said
slowly and emphatically, in an oddly altered voice that conveyed somehow a
touch of defiance. "I was only—takin' a look round—so to speak. It's
always a mistake to be too previous with yer questions." Then he added
suddenly with obvious effort, in his more natural voice, "Have you got the
matches, Boss Simpson?" and proceeded to light the pipe he had half filled
just before he began to sing.
Without speaking another word they sat down again by the
fire. Défago changing his side so that he could face the direction the wind
came from. For even a tenderfoot could tell that. Défago changed his position
in order to hear and smell—all there was to be heard and smelt. And, since he
now faced the lake with his back to the trees it was evidently nothing in the
forest that had sent so strange and sudden a warning to his marvelously trained
nerves.
"Guess now I don't feel like singing any," he
explained presently of his own accord. "That song kinder brings back
memories that's troublesome to me; I never oughter've begun it. It sets me on
t' imagining things, see?"
Clearly the man was still fighting with some profoundly
moving emotion. He wished to excuse himself in the eyes of the other. But the
explanation, in that it was only a part of the truth, was a lie, and he knew
perfectly well that Simpson was not deceived by it. For nothing could explain
away the livid terror that had dropped over his face while he stood there
sniffing the air. And nothing—no amount of blazing fire, or chatting on
ordinary subjects—could make that camp exactly as it had been before. The
shadow of an unknown horror, naked if unguessed, that had flashed for an
instant in the face and gestures of the guide, had also communicated itself,
vaguely and therefore more potently, to his companion. The guide's visible
efforts to dissemble the truth only made things worse. Moreover, to add to the
younger man's uneasiness, was the difficulty, nay, the impossibility he felt of
asking questions, and also his complete ignorance as to the cause ...Indians,
wild animals, forest fires—all these, he knew, were wholly out of the question.
His imagination searched vigorously, but in vain....
Yet, somehow or other, after another long spell of smoking,
talking and roasting themselves before the great fire, the shadow that had so
suddenly invaded their peaceful camp began to shirt. Perhaps Défago's efforts,
or the return of his quiet and normal attitude accomplished this; perhaps
Simpson himself had exaggerated the affair out of all proportion to the truth;
or possibly the vigorous air of the wilderness brought its own powers of
healing. Whatever the cause, the feeling of immediate horror seemed to have
passed away as mysteriously as it had come, for nothing occurred to feed it.
Simpson began to feel that he had permitted himself the unreasoning terror of a
child. He put it down partly to a certain subconscious excitement that this
wild and immense scenery generated in his blood, partly to the spell of
solitude, and partly to overfatigue. That pallor in the guide's face was, of
course, uncommonly hard to explain, yet it might have been due in some way to
an effect of firelight, or his own imagination ...He gave it the benefit of the
doubt; he was Scotch.
When a somewhat unordinary emotion has disappeared, the mind
always finds a dozen ways of explaining away its causes ...Simpson lit a last
pipe and tried to laugh to himself. On getting home to Scotland it would make
quite a good story. He did not realize that this laughter was a sign that
terror still lurked in the recesses of his soul—that, in fact, it was merely
one of the conventional signs by which a man, seriously alarmed, tries to
persuade himself that he isnot so.
Défago, however, heard that low laughter and looked up with
surprise on his face. The two men stood, side by side, kicking the embers about
before going to bed. It was ten o'clock—a late hour for hunters to be still
awake.
"What's ticklin' yer?" he asked in his ordinary
tone, yet gravely.
"I—I was thinking of our little toy woods at home, just
at that moment," stammered Simpson, coming back to what really dominated
his mind, and startled by the question, "and comparing them to—to all
this," and he swept his arm round to indicate the Bush.
A pause followed in which neither of them said anything.
"All the same I wouldn't laugh about it, if I was
you," Défago added, looking over Simpson's shoulder into the shadows.
"There's places in there nobody won't never see into—nobody knows what
lives in there either."
"Too big—too far off?" The suggestion in the
guide's manner was immense and horrible.
Défago nodded. The expression on his face was dark. He, too,
felt uneasy. The younger man understood that in a hinterland of this size there
might well be depths of wood that would never in the life of the world be known
or trodden. The thought was not exactly the sort he welcomed. In a loud voice,
cheerfully, he suggested that it was time for bed. But the guide lingered,
tinkering with the fire, arranging the stones needlessly, doing a dozen things
that did not really need doing. Evidently there was something he wanted to say,
yet found it difficult to "get at."
"Say, you, Boss Simpson," he began suddenly, as
the last shower of sparks went up into the air, "you don't—smell nothing,
do you—nothing pertickler, I mean?" The commonplace question, Simpson
realized, veiled a dreadfully serious thought in his mind. A shiver ran down
his back.
"Nothing but burning wood," he replied firmly,
kicking again at the embers. The sound of his own foot made him start.
"And all the evenin' you ain't smelt—nothing?"
persisted the guide, peering at him through the gloom; "nothing
extrordiny, and different to anything else you ever smelt before?"
"No, no, man; nothing at all!" he replied
aggressively, half angrily.
Défago's face cleared. "That's good!" he exclaimed
with evident relief. "That's good to hear."
"Have you?" asked Simpson sharply, and the same
instant regretted the question.
The Canadian came closer in the darkness. He shook his head.
"I guess not," he said, though without overwhelming conviction.
"It must've been just that song of mine that did it. It's the song they
sing in lumber camps and godforsaken places like that, when they've skeered the
Wendigo's somewhere around, doin' a bit of swift traveling.—"
"And what's the Wendigo, pray?" Simpson asked
quickly, irritated because again he could not prevent that sudden shiver of the
nerves. He knew that he was close upon the man's terror and the cause of it.
Yet a rushing passionate curiosity overcame his better judgment, and his fear.
Défago turned swiftly and looked at him as though he were
suddenly about to shriek. His eyes shone, but his mouth was wide open. Yet all
he said, or whispered rather, for his voice sank very low, was: "It's
nuthin'—nuthin' but what those lousy fellers believe when they've bin hittin'
the bottle too long—a sort of great animal that lives up yonder," he jerked
his head northwards, "quick as lightning in its tracks, an' bigger'n
anything else in the Bush, an' ain't supposed to be very good to look at—that's
all!"
"A backwoods superstition—" began Simpson, moving
hastily toward the tent in order to shake off the hand of the guide that
clutched his arm. "Come, come, hurry up for God's sake, and get the
lantern going! It's time we were in bed and asleep if we're going to be up with
the sun tomorrow...."
The guide was close on his heels. "I'm coming," he
answered out of the darkness, "I'm coming." And after a slight delay
he appeared with the lantern and hung it from a nail in the front pole of the
tent. The shadows of a hundred trees shifted their places quickly as he did so,
and when he stumbled over the rope, diving swiftly inside, the whole tent
trembled as though a gust of wind struck it.
The two men lay down, without undressing, upon their beds of
soft balsam boughs, cunningly arranged. Inside, all was warm and cozy, but
outside the world of crowding trees pressed close about them, marshalling their
million shadows, and smothering the little tent that stood there like a wee
white shell facing the ocean of tremendous forest.
Between the two lonely figures within, however, there
pressed another shadow that was not a shadow from the night. It was the Shadow
cast by the strange Fear, never wholly exorcised, that had leaped suddenly upon
Défago in the middle of his singing. And Simpson, as he lay there, watching the
darkness through the open flap of the tent, ready to plunge into the fragrant
abyss of sleep, knew first that unique and profound stillness of a primeval
forest when no wind stirs ... and when the night has weight and substance that
enters into the soul to bind a veil about it.... Then sleep took him....
III Thus, it seemed to him, at least. Yet it was true that
the lap of the water, just beyond the tent door, still beat time with his
lessening pulses when he realized that he was lying with his eyes open and that
another sound had recently introduced itself with cunning softness between the
splash and murmur of the little waves.
And, long before he understood what this sound was, it had
stirred in him the centers of pity and alarm. He listened intently, though at
first in vain, for the running blood beat all its drums too noisily in his
ears. Did it come, he wondered, from the lake, or from the woods?...
Then, suddenly, with a rush and a flutter of the heart, he
knew that it was close beside him in the tent; and, when he turned over for a
better hearing, it focused itself unmistakably not two feet away. It was a
sound of weeping; Défago upon his bed of branches was sobbing in the darkness
as though his heart would break, the blankets evidently stuffed against his
mouth to stifle it.
And his first feeling, before he could think or reflect, was
the rush of a poignant and searching tenderness. This intimate, human sound,
heard amid the desolation about them, woke pity. It was so incongruous, so
pitifully incongruous—and so vain! Tears—in this vast and cruel wilderness: of
what avail? He thought of a little child crying in mid-Atlantic.... Then, of
course, with fuller realization, and the memory of what had gone before, came
the descent of the terror upon him, and his blood ran cold.
"Défago," he whispered quickly, "what's the
matter?" He tried to make his voice very gentle. "Are you in
pain—unhappy—?" There was no reply, but the sounds ceased abruptly. He
stretched his hand out and touched him. The body did not stir.
"Are you awake?" for it occurred to him that the
man was crying in his sleep. "Are you cold?" He noticed that his
feet, which were uncovered, projected beyond the mouth of the tent. He spread
an extra fold of his own blankets over them. The guide had slipped down in his
bed, and the branches seemed to have been dragged with him. He was afraid to
pull the body back again, for fear of waking him.
One or two tentative questions he ventured softly, but
though he waited for several minutes there came no reply, nor any sign of movement.
Presently he heard his regular and quiet breathing, and putting his hand again
gently on the breast, felt the steady rise and fall beneath.
"Let me know if anything's wrong," he whispered,
"or if I can do anything. Wake me at once if you feel—queer."
He hardly knew what to say. He lay down again, thinking and
wondering what it all meant. Défago, of course, had been crying in his sleep.
Some dream or other had afflicted him. Yet never in his life would he forget
that pitiful sound of sobbing, and the feeling that the whole awful wilderness
of woods listened....
His own mind busied itself for a long time with the recent
events, of which this took its mysterious place as one, and though his reason
successfully argued away all unwelcome suggestions, a sensation of uneasiness
remained, resisting ejection, very deep-seated—peculiar beyond ordinary.
IV But sleep, in the long run, proves greater than all
emotions. His thoughts soon wandered again; he lay there, warm as toast,
exceedingly weary; the night soothed and comforted, blunting the edges of
memory and alarm. Half an hour later he was oblivious of everything in the
outer world about him.
Yet sleep, in this case, was his great enemy, concealing all
approaches, smothering the warning of his nerves.
As, sometimes, in a nightmare events crowd upon each other's
heels with a conviction of dreadfulest reality, yet some inconsistent detail
accuses the whole display of incompleteness and disguise, so the events that
now followed, though they actually happened, persuaded the mind somehow that
the detail which could explain them had been overlooked in the confusion, and
that therefore they were but partly true, the rest delusion. At the back of the
sleeper's mind something remains awake, ready to let slip the judgment.
"All this is not quite real; when you wake up you'll understand."
And thus, in a way, it was with Simpson. The events, not
wholly inexplicable or incredible in themselves, yet remain for the man who saw
and heard them a sequence of separate facts of cold horror, because the little
piece that might have made the puzzle clear lay concealed or overlooked.
So far as he can recall, it was a violent movement, running
downwards through the tent towards the door, that first woke him and made him
aware that his companion was sitting bolt upright beside him—quivering. Hours
must have passed, for it was the pale gleam of the dawn that revealed his
outline against the canvas. This time the man was not crying; he was quaking
like a leaf; the trembling he felt plainly through the blankets down the entire
length of his own body. Défago had huddled down against him for protection,
shrinking away from something that apparently concealed itself near the door
flaps of the little tent.
Simpson thereupon called out in a loud voice some question
or other—in the first bewilderment of waking he does not remember exactly
what—and the man made no reply. The atmosphere and feeling of true nightmare
lay horribly about him, making movement and speech both difficult. At first, indeed,
he was not sure where he was—whether in one of the earlier camps, or at home in
his bed at Aberdeen. The sense of confusion was very troubling.
And next—almost simultaneous with his waking, it seemed—the
profound stillness of the dawn outside was shattered by a most uncommon sound.
It came without warning, or audible approach; and it was unspeakably dreadful.
It was a voice, Simpson declares, possibly a human voice; hoarse yet
plaintive—a soft, roaring voice close outside the tent, overhead rather than
upon the ground, of immense volume, while in some strange way most
penetratingly and seductively sweet. It rang out, too, in three separate and
distinct notes, or cries, that bore in some odd fashion a resemblance,
farfetched yet recognizable, to the name of the guide: "Dé-fa-go!"
The student admits he is unable to describe it quite
intelligently, for it was unlike any sound he had ever heard in his life, and
combined a blending of such contrary qualities. "A sort of windy, crying
voice," he calls it, "as of something lonely and untamed, wild and of
abominable power...."
And, even before it ceased, dropping back into the great
gulfs of silence, the guide beside him had sprung to his feet with an answering
though unintelligible cry. He blundered against the tent pole with violence, shaking
the whole structure, spreading his arms out frantically for more room, and
kicking his legs impetuously free of the clinging blankets. For a second,
perhaps two, he stood upright by the door, his outline dark against the pallor
of the dawn; then, with a furious, rushing speed, before his companion could
move a hand to stop him, he shot with a plunge through the flaps of canvas—and
was gone. And as he went—so astonishingly fast that the voice could actually be
heard dying in the distance—he called aloud in tones of anguished terror that
at the same time held something strangely like the frenzied exultation of
delight--
"Oh! oh! My feet of fire! My burning feet of fire! Oh!
oh! This height and fiery speed!"
And then the distance quickly buried it, and the deep
silence of very early morning descended upon the forest as before.
It had all come about with such rapidity that, but for the
evidence of the empty bed beside him, Simpson could almost have believed it to
have been the memory of a nightmare carried over from sleep. He still felt the
warm pressure of that vanished body against his side; there lay the twisted
blankets in a heap; the very tent yet trembled with the vehemence of the
impetuous departure. The strange words rang in his ears, as though he still
heard them in the distance—wild language of a suddenly stricken mind. Moreover,
it was not only the senses of sight and hearing that reported uncommon things
to his brain, for even while the man cried and ran, he had become aware that a
strange perfume, faint yet pungent, pervaded the interior of the tent. And it
was at this point, it seems, brought to himself by the consciousness that his
nostrils were taking this distressing odor down into his throat, that he found
his courage, sprang quickly to his feet—and went out.
The grey light of dawn that dropped, cold and glimmering,
between the trees revealed the scene tolerably well. There stood the tent
behind him, soaked with dew; the dark ashes of the fire, still warm; the lake,
white beneath a coating of mist, the islands rising darkly out of it like
objects packed in wool; and patches of snow beyond among the clearer spaces of
the Bush—everything cold, still, waiting for the sun. But nowhere a sign of the
vanished guide—still, doubtless, flying at frantic speed through the frozen
woods. There was not even the sound of disappearing footsteps, nor the echoes
of the dying voice. He had gone—utterly.
There was nothing; nothing but the sense of his recent
presence, so strongly left behind about the camp; and—this penetrating,
all-pervading odor.
And even this was now rapidly disappearing in its turn. In
spite of his exceeding mental perturbation, Simpson struggled hard to detect
its nature, and define it, but the ascertaining of an elusive scent, not recognized
subconsciously and at once, is a very subtle operation of the mind. And he
failed. It was gone before he could properly seize or name it. Approximate
description, even, seems to have been difficult, for it was unlike any smell he
knew. Acrid rather, not unlike the odor of a lion, he thinks, yet softer and
not wholly unpleasing, with something almost sweet in it that reminded him of
the scent of decaying garden leaves, earth, and the myriad, nameless perfumes
that make up the odor of a big forest. Yet the "odor of lions" is the
phrase with which he usually sums it all up.
Then—it was wholly gone, and he found himself standing by
the ashes of the fire in a state of amazement and stupid terror that left him
the helpless prey of anything that chose to happen. Had a muskrat poked its
pointed muzzle over a rock, or a squirrel scuttled in that instant down the
bark of a tree, he would most likely have collapsed without more ado and
fainted. For he felt about the whole affair the touch somewhere of a great Outer
Horror ... and his scattered powers had not as yet had time to collect
themselves into a definite attitude of fighting self-control.
Nothing did happen, however. A great kiss of wind ran softly
through the awakening forest, and a few maple leaves here and there rustled
tremblingly to earth. The sky seemed to grow suddenly much lighter. Simpson
felt the cool air upon his cheek and uncovered head; realized that he was
shivering with the cold; and, making a great effort, realized next that he was
alone in the Bush--and that he was called upon to take immediate steps to find
and succor his vanished companion.
Make an effort, accordingly, he did, though an
ill-calculated and futile one. With that wilderness of trees about him, the
sheet of water cutting him off behind, and the horror of that wild cry in his
blood, he did what any other inexperienced man would have done in similar
bewilderment: he ran about, without any sense of direction, like a frantic
child, and called loudly without ceasing the name of the guide:
"Défago! Défago! Défago!" he yelled, and the trees
gave him back the name as often as he shouted, only a little
softened—"Défago! Défago! Défago!"
He followed the trail that lay a short distance across the
patches of snow, and then lost it again where the trees grew too thickly for
snow to lie. He shouted till he was hoarse, and till the sound of his own voice
in all that unanswering and listening world began to frighten him. His
confusion increased in direct ratio to the violence of his efforts. His
distress became formidably acute, till at length his exertions defeated their
own object, and from sheer exhaustion he headed back to the camp again. It
remains a wonder that he ever found his way. It was with great difficulty, and
only after numberless false clues, that he at last saw the white tent between
the trees, and so reached safety.
Exhaustion then applied its own remedy, and he grew calmer.
He made the fire and breakfasted. Hot coffee and bacon put a little sense and
judgment into him again, and he realized that he had been behaving like a boy.
He now made another, and more successful attempt to face the situation
collectedly, and, a nature naturally plucky coming to his assistance, he
decided that he must first make as thorough a search as possible, failing
success in which, he must find his way into the home camp as best he could and
bring help.
And this was what he did. Taking food, matches and rifle
with him, and a small axe to blaze the trees against his return journey, he set
forth. It was eight o'clock when he started, the sun shining over the tops of
the trees in a sky without clouds. Pinned to a stake by the fire he left a note
in case Défago returned while he was away.
This time, according to a careful plan, he took a new
direction, intending to make a wide sweep that must sooner or later cut into
indications of the guide's trail; and, before he had gone a quarter of a mile
he came across the tracks of a large animal in the snow, and beside it the
light and smaller tracks of what were beyond question human feet—the feet of
Défago. The relief he at once experienced was natural, though brief; for at
first sight he saw in these tracks a simple explanation of the whole matter:
these big marks had surely been left by a bull moose that, wind against it, had
blundered upon the camp, and uttered its singular cry of warning and alarm the
moment its mistake was apparent. Défago, in whom the hunting instinct was
developed to the point of uncanny perfection, had scented the brute coming down
the wind hours before. His excitement and disappearance were due, of course,
to—to his--
Then the impossible explanation at which he grasped faded,
as common sense showed him mercilessly that none of this was true. No guide,
much less a guide like Défago, could have acted in so irrational a way, going
off even without his rifle ...! The whole affair demanded a far more
complicated elucidation, when he remembered the details of it all—the cry of terror,
the amazing language, the grey face of horror when his nostrils first caught
the new odor; that muffled sobbing in the darkness, and—for this, too, now came
back to him dimly—the man's original aversion for this particular bit of
country....
Besides, now that he examined them closer, these were not
the tracks of a bull moose at all! Hank had explained to him the outline of a
bull's hoofs, of a cow's or calf s, too, for that matter; he had drawn them
clearly on a strip of birch bark. And these were wholly different. They were
big, round, ample, and with no pointed outline as of sharp hoofs. He wondered
for a moment whether bear tracks were like that. There was no other animal he
could think of, for caribou did not come so far south at this season, and, even
if they did, would leave hoof marks.
They were ominous signs—these mysterious writings left in
the snow by the unknown creature that had lured a human being away from
safety—and when he coupled them in his imagination with that haunting sound
that broke the stillness of the dawn, a momentary dizziness shook his mind,
distressing him again beyond belief. He felt the threatening aspect of it all.
And, stooping down to examine the marks more closely, he caught a faint whiff
of that sweet yet pungent odor that made him instantly straighten up again,
fighting a sensation almost of nausea.
Then his memory played him another evil trick. He suddenly
recalled those uncovered feet projecting beyond the edge of the tent, and the
body's appearance of having been dragged towards the opening; the man's
shrinking from something by the door when he woke later. The details now beat
against his trembling mind with concerted attack. They seemed to gather in
those deep spaces of the silent forest about him, where the host of trees stood
waiting, listening, watching to see what he would do. The woods were closing
round him.
With the persistence of true pluck, however, Simpson went
forward, following the tracks as best he could, smothering these ugly emotions
that sought to weaken his will. He blazed innumerable trees as he went, ever
fearful of being unable to find the way back, and calling aloud at intervals of
a few seconds the name of the guide. The dull tapping of the axe upon the
massive trunks, and the unnatural accents of his own voice became at length
sounds that he even dreaded to make, dreaded to hear. For they drew attention
without ceasing to his presence and exact whereabouts, and if it were really
the case that something was hunting himself down in the same way that he was
hunting down another--
With a strong effort, he crushed the thought out the instant
it rose. It was the beginning, he realized, of a bewilderment utterly
diabolical in kind that would speedily destroy him.
Although the snow was not continuous, lying merely in
shallow flurries over the more open spaces, he found no difficulty in following
the tracks for the first few miles. They went straight as a ruled line wherever
the trees permitted. The stride soon began to increase in length, till it finally
assumed proportions that seemed absolutely impossible for any ordinary animal
to have made. Like huge flying leaps they became. One of these he measured, and
though he knew that "stretch" of eighteen feet must be somehow wrong,
he was at a complete loss to understand why he found no signs on the snow
between the extreme points. But what perplexed him even more, making him feel
his vision had gone utterly awry, was that Défago's stride increased in the
same manner, and finally covered the same incredible distances. It looked as if
the great beast had lifted him with it and carried him across these astonishing
intervals. Simpson, who was much longer in the limb, found that he could not
compass even half the stretch by taking a running jump.
And the sight of these huge tracks, running side by side,
silent evidence of a dreadful journey in which terror or madness had urged to
impossible results, was profoundly moving. It shocked him in the secret depths
of his soul. It was the most horrible thing his eyes had ever looked upon. He
began to follow them mechanically, absentmindedly almost, ever peering over his
shoulder to see if he, too, were being followed by something with a gigantic
tread.... And soon it came about that he no longer quite realized what it was
they signified—these impressions left upon the snow by something nameless and
untamed, always accompanied by the footmarks of the little French Canadian, his
guide, his comrade, the man who had shared his tent a few hours before,
chatting, laughing, even singing by his side....
V For a man of his years and inexperience, only a canny
Scot, perhaps, grounded in common sense and established in logic, could have
preserved even that measure of balance that this youth somehow or other did
manage to preserve through the whole adventure. Otherwise, two things he
presently noticed, while forging pluckily ahead, must have sent him headlong
back to the comparative safety of his tent, instead of only making his hands
close more tightly upon the rifle stock, while his heart, trained for the Wee
Kirk, sent a wordless prayer winging its way to heaven. Both tracks, he saw,
had undergone a change, and this change, so far as it concerned the footsteps
of the man, was in some undecipherable manner—appalling.
It was in the bigger tracks he first noticed this, and for a
long time he could not quite believe his eyes. Was it the blown leaves that
produced odd effects of light and shade, or that the dry snow, drifting like
finely ground rice about the edges, cast shadows and high lights? Or was it
actually the fact that the great marks had become faintly colored? For round
about the deep, plunging holes of the animal there now appeared a mysterious,
reddish tinge that was more like an effect of light than of anything that dyed the
substance of the snow itself. Every mark had it, and had it increasingly—this
indistinct fiery tinge that painted a new touch of ghastliness into the
picture.
But when, wholly unable to explain or to credit it, he
turned his attention to the other tracks to discover if they, too, bore similar
witness, he noticed that these had meanwhile undergone a change that was
infinitely worse, and charged with far more horrible suggestion. For, in the
last hundred yards or so, he saw that they had grown gradually into the
semblance of the parent tread. Imperceptibly the change had come about, yet
unmistakably. It was hard to see where the change first began. The result,
however, was beyond question. Smaller, neater, more cleanly modeled, they
formed now an exact and careful duplicate of the larger tracks beside them. The
feet that produced them had, therefore, also changed. And something in his mind
reared up with loathing and with terror as he saw it.
Simpson, for the first time, hesitated; then, ashamed of his
alarm and indecision, took a few hurried steps ahead; the next instant stopped
dead in his tracks. Immediately in front of him all signs of the trail ceased;
both tracks came to an abrupt end. On all sides, for a hundred yards and more,
he searched in vain for the least indication of their continuance. There
was—nothing.
The trees were very thick just there, big trees all of them,
spruce, cedar, hemlock; there was no underbrush. He stood, looking about him,
all distraught; bereft of any power of judgment. Then he set to work to search
again, and again, and yet again, but always with the same result: nothing. The
feet that printed the surface of the snow thus far had now, apparently, left
the ground!
And it was in that moment of distress and confusion that the
whip of terror laid its most nicely calculated lash about his heart. It dropped
with deadly effect upon the sorest spot of all, completely unnerving him. He
had been secretly dreading all the time that it would come—and come it did.
Far overhead, muted by great height and distance, strangely
thinned and wailing, he heard the crying voice of Défago, the guide.
The sound dropped upon him out of that still, wintry sky
with an effect of dismay and terror unsurpassed. The rifle fell to his feet. He
stood motionless an instant, listening as it were with his whole body, then
staggered back against the nearest tree for support, disorganized hopelessly in
mind and spirit. To him, in that moment, it seemed the most shattering and
dislocating experience he had ever known, so that his heart emptied itself of
all feeling whatsoever as by a sudden draught.
"Oh! oh! This fiery height! Oh, my feet of fire! My
burning feet of fire ...!" ran in far, beseeching accents of indescribable
appeal this voice of anguish down the sky. Once it called—then silence through
all the listening wilderness of trees.
And Simpson, scarcely knowing what he did, presently found
himself running wildly to and fro, searching, calling, tripping over roots and
boulders, and flinging himself in a frenzy of undirected pursuit after the
Caller. Behind the screen of memory and emotion with which experience veils
events, he plunged, distracted and half-deranged, picking up false lights like
a ship at sea, terror in his eyes and heart and soul. For the Panic of the
Wilderness had called to him in that far voice—the Power of untamed
Distance—the Enticement of the Desolation that destroys. He knew in that moment
all the pains of someone hopelessly and irretrievably lost, suffering the lust
and travail of a soul in the final Loneliness. A vision of Défago, eternally
hunted, driven and pursued across the skiey vastness of those ancient forests
fled like a flame across the dark ruin of his thoughts ...
It seemed ages before he could find anything in the chaos of
his disorganized sensations to which he could anchor himself steady for a
moment, and think ...
The cry was not repeated; his own hoarse calling brought no
response; the inscrutable forces of the Wild had summoned their victim beyond
recall—and held him fast.
Yet he searched and called, it seems, for hours afterwards,
for it was late in the afternoon when at length he decided to abandon a useless
pursuit and return to his camp on the shores of Fifty Island Water. Even then
he went with reluctance, that crying voice still echoing in his ears. With
difficulty he found his rifle and the homeward trail. The concentration
necessary to follow the badly blazed trees, and a biting hunger that gnawed, helped
to keep his mind steady. Otherwise, he admits, the temporary aberration he had
suffered might have been prolonged to the point of positive disaster. Gradually
the ballast shifted back again, and he regained something that approached his
normal equilibrium.
But for all that the journey through the gathering dusk was
miserably haunted. He heard innumerable following footsteps; voices that
laughed and whispered; and saw figures crouching behind trees and boulders,
making signs to one another for a concerted attack the moment he had passed.
The creeping murmur of the wind made him start and listen. He went stealthily,
trying to hide where possible, and making as little sound as he could. The
shadows of the woods, hitherto protective or covering merely, had now become
menacing, challenging; and the pageantry in his frightened mind masked a host
of possibilities that were all the more ominous for being obscure. The
presentiment of a nameless doom lurked ill-concealed behind every detail of
what had happened.
It was really admirable how he emerged victor in the end;
men of riper powers and experience might have come through the ordeal with less
success. He had himself tolerably well in hand, all things considered, and his
plan of action proves it. Sleep being absolutely out of the question and
traveling an unknown trail in the darkness equally impracticable, he sat up the
whole of that night, rifle in hand, before a fire he never for a single moment
allowed to die down. The severity of the haunted vigil marked his soul for
life; but it was successfully accomplished; and with the very first signs of
dawn he set forth upon the long return journey to the home camp to get help. As
before, he left a written note to explain his absence, and to indicate where he
had left a plentiful cache of food and matches—though he had no expectation
that any human hands would find them!
How Simpson found his way alone by the lake and forest might
well make a story in itself, for to hear him tell it is to know the passionate
loneliness of soul that a man can feel when the Wilderness holds him in the
hollow of its illimitable hand—and laughs. It is also to admire his indomitable
pluck.
He claims no skill, declaring that he followed the almost
invisible trail mechanically, and without thinking. And this, doubtless, is the
truth. He relied upon the guiding of the unconscious mind, which is instinct.
Perhaps, too, some sense of orientation, known to animals and primitive men,
may have helped as well, for through all that tangled region he succeeded in
reaching the exact spot where Défago had hidden the canoe nearly three days
before with the remark, "Strike doo west across the lake into the sun to
find the camp."
There was not much sun left to guide him, but he used his
compass to the best of his ability, embarking in the frail craft for the last
twelve miles of his journey with a sensation of immense relief that the forest
was at last behind him. And, fortunately, the water was calm; he took his line
across the center of the lake instead of coasting round the shores for another
twenty miles. Fortunately, too, the other hunters were back. The light of their
fires furnished a steering point without which he might have searched all night
long for the actual position of the camp.
It was close upon midnight all the same when his canoe
grated on the sandy cove, and Hank, Punk and his uncle, disturbed in their
sleep by his cries, ran quickly down and helped a very exhausted and broken
specimen of Scotch humanity over the rocks toward a dying fire.
VI The sudden entrance of his prosaic uncle into this world
of wizardry and horror that had haunted him without interruption now for two
days and two nights, had the immediate effect of giving to the affair an
entirely new aspect. The sound of that crisp "Hulloa, my boy! And what's
up now?" and the grasp of that dry and vigorous hand introduced another
standard of judgment. A revulsion of feeling washed through him. He realized
that he had let himself "go" rather badly. He even felt vaguely
ashamed of himself. The native hard-headedness of his race reclaimed him.
And this doubtless explains why he found it so hard to tell
that group round the fire—everything. He told enough, however, for the
immediate decision to be arrived at that a relief party must start at the
earliest possible moment, and that Simpson, in order to guide it capably, must
first have food and, above all, sleep. Dr. Cathcart observing the lad's
condition more shrewdly than his patient knew, gave him a very slight injection
of morphine. For six hours he slept like the dead.
From the description carefully written out afterwards by
this student of divinity, it appears that the account he gave to the astonished
group omitted sundry vital and important details. He declares that, with his
uncle's wholesome, matter-of-fact countenance staring him in the face, he
simply had not the courage to mention them. Thus, all the search party
gathered, it would seem, was that Défago had suffered in the night an acute and
inexplicable attack of mania, had imagined himself "called" by
someone or something, and had plunged into the bush after it without food or
rifle, where he must die a horrible and lingering death by cold and starvation
unless he could be found and rescued in time. "In time," moreover,
meant at once.
In the course of the following day, however—they were off by
seven, leaving Punk in charge with instructions to have food and fire always
ready—Simpson found it possible to tell his uncle a good deal more of the
story's true inwardness, without divining that it was drawn out of him as a
matter of fact by a very subtle form of cross examination. By the time they
reached the beginning of the trail, where the canoe was laid up against the
return journey, he had mentioned how Défago spoke vaguely of "something he
called a 'Wendigo'"; how he cried in his sleep; how he imagined an unusual
scent about the camp; and had betrayed other symptoms of mental excitement. He
also admitted the bewildering effect of "that extraordinary odor"
upon himself, "pungent and acrid like the odor of lions." And by the
time they were within an easy hour of Fifty Island Water he had let slip the
further fact—a foolish avowal of his own hysterical condition, as he felt
afterwards—that he had heard the vanished guide call "for help." He
omitted the singular phrases used, for he simply could not bring himself to
repeat the preposterous language. Also, while describing how the man's
footsteps in the snow had gradually assumed an exact miniature likeness of the
animal's plunging tracks, he left out the fact that they measured a wholly
incredible distance. It seemed a question, nicely balanced between individual
pride and honesty, what he should reveal and what suppress. He mentioned the
fiery tinge in the snow, for instance, yet shrank from telling that body and
bed had been partly dragged out of the tent....
With the net result that Dr. Cathcart, adroit psychologist
that he fancied himself to be, had assured him clearly enough exactly where his
mind, influenced by loneliness, bewilderment and terror, had yielded to the
strain and invited delusion. While praising his conduct, he managed at the same
time to point out where, when, and how his mind had gone astray. He made his
nephew think himself finer than he was by judicious praise, yet more foolish
than he was by minimizing the value of the evidence. Like many another
materialist, that is, he lied cleverly on the basis of insufficient knowledge,
because the knowledge supplied seemed to his own particular intelligence
inadmissible.
"The spell of these terrible solitudes," he said,
"cannot leave any mind untouched, any mind, that is, possessed of the
higher imaginative qualities. It has worked upon yours exactly as it worked
upon my own when I was your age. The animal that haunted your little camp was
undoubtedly a moose, for the 'belling' of a moose may have, sometimes, a very
peculiar quality of sound. The colored appearance of the big tracks was
obviously a defect of vision in your own eyes produced by excitement. The size
and stretch of the tracks we shall prove when we come to them. But the hallucination
of an audible voice, of course, is one of the commonest forms of delusion due
to mental excitement—an excitement, my dear boy, perfectly excusable, and, let
me add, wonderfully controlled by you under the circumstances. For the rest, I
am bound to say, you have acted with a splendid courage, for the terror of
feeling oneself lost in this wilderness is nothing short of awful, and, had I
been in your place, I don't for a moment believe I could have behaved with one
quarter of your wisdom and decision. The only thing I find it uncommonly
difficult to explain is—that—damned odor."
"It made me feel sick, I assure you," declared his
nephew, "positively dizzy!" His uncle's attitude of calm omniscience,
merely because he knew more psychological formulae, made him slightly defiant.
It was so easy to be wise in the explanation of an experience one has not
personally witnessed. "A kind of desolate and terrible odor is the only
way I can describe it," he concluded, glancing at the features of the
quiet, unemotional man beside him.
"I can only marvel," was the reply, "that
under the circumstances it did not seem to you even worse." The dry words,
Simpson knew, hovered between the truth, and his uncle's interpretation of
"the truth."
And so at last they came to the little camp and found the
tent still standing, the remains of the fire, and the piece of paper pinned to
a stake beside it—untouched. The cache, poorly contrived by inexperienced
hands, however, had been discovered and opened—by musk rats, mink and squirrel.
The matches lay scattered about the opening, but the food had been taken to the
last crumb.
"Well, fellers, he ain't here," exclaimed Hank
loudly after his fashion. "And that's as sartain as the coal supply down
below! But whar he's got to by this time is 'bout as unsartain as the trade in
crowns in t'other place." The presence of a divinity student was no
barrier to his language at such a time, though for the reader's sake it may be
severely edited. "I propose," he added, "that we start out at once
an' hunt for'm like hell!"
The gloom of Défago's probable fate oppressed the whole
party with a sense of dreadful gravity the moment they saw the familiar signs
of recent occupancy. Especially the tent, with the bed of balsam branches still
smoothed and flattened by the pressure of his body, seemed to bring his
presence near to them. Simpson, feeling vaguely as if his world were somehow at
stake, went about explaining particulars in a hushed tone. He was much calmer
now, though overwearied with the strain of his many journeys. His uncle's
method of explaining—"explaining away," rather—the details still
fresh in his haunted memory helped, too, to put ice upon his emotions.
"And that's the direction he ran off in," he said
to his two companions, pointing in the direction where the guide had vanished
that morning in the grey dawn. "Straight down there he ran like a deer, in
between the birch and the hemlock...."
Hank and Dr. Cathcart exchanged glances.
"And it was about two miles down there, in a straight
line," continued the other, speaking with something of the former terror
in his voice, "that I followed his trail to the place where—it
stopped—dead!"
"And where you heered him callin' an' caught the
stench, an' all the rest of the wicked entertainment," cried Hank, with a
volubility that betrayed his keen distress.
"And where your excitement overcame you to the point of
producing illusions," added Dr. Cathcart under his breath, yet not so low
that his nephew did not hear it.
It was early in the afternoon, for they had traveled
quickly, and there were still a good two hours of daylight left. Dr. Cathcart
and Hank lost no time in beginning the search, but Simpson was too exhausted to
accompany them. They would follow the blazed marks on the trees, and where
possible, his footsteps. Meanwhile the best thing he could do was to keep a
good fire going, and rest.
But after something like three hours' search, the darkness
already down, the two men returned to camp with nothing to report. Fresh snow
had covered all signs, and though they had followed the blazed trees to the
spot where Simpson had turned back, they had not discovered the smallest
indication of a human being—or for that matter, of an animal. There were no
fresh tracks of any kind; the snow lay undisturbed.
It was difficult to know what was best to do, though in
reality there was nothing more they could do. They might stay and search for
weeks without much chance of success. The fresh snow destroyed their only hope,
and they gathered round the fire for supper, a gloomy and despondent party. The
facts, indeed, were sad enough, for Défago had a wife at Rat Portage, and his
earnings were the family's sole means of support.
Now that the whole truth in all its ugliness was out, it
seemed useless to deal in further disguise or pretense. They talked openly of
the facts and probabilities. It was not the first time, even in the experience
of Dr. Cathcart, that a man had yielded to the singular seduction of the
Solitudes and gone out of his mind; Défago, moreover, was predisposed to
something of the sort, for he already had a touch of melancholia in his blood,
and his fiber was weakened by bouts of drinking that often lasted for weeks at
a time. Something on this trip—one might never know precisely what—had sufficed
to push him over the line, that was all. And he had gone, gone off into the
great wilderness of trees and lakes to die by starvation and exhaustion. The
chances against his finding camp again were overwhelming; the delirium that was
upon him would also doubtless have increased, and it was quite likely he might
do violence to himself and so hasten his cruel fate. Even while they talked,
indeed, the end had probably come. On the suggestion of Hank, his old pal,
however, they proposed to wait a little longer and devote the whole of the
following day, from dawn to darkness, to the most systematic search they could
devise. They would divide the territory between them. They discussed their plan
in great detail. All that men could do they would do. And, meanwhile, they
talked about the particular form in which the singular Panic of the Wilderness
had made its attack upon the mind of the unfortunate guide. Hank, though
familiar with the legend in its general outline, obviously did not welcome the
turn the conversation had taken. He contributed little, though that little was
illuminating. For he admitted that a story ran over all this section of country
to the effect that several Indians had "seen the Wendigo" along the
shores of Fifty Island Water in the "fall" of last year, and that
this was the true reason of Défago's disinclination to hunt there. Hank
doubtless felt that he had in a sense helped his old pal to death by
overpersuading him. "When an Indian goes crazy," he explained, talking
to himself more than to the others, it seemed, "it's always put that he's
'seen the Wendigo.' An' pore old Défaygo was superstitious down to he very
heels ...!"
And then Simpson, feeling the atmosphere more sympathetic,
told over again the full story of his astonishing tale; he left out no details
this time; he mentioned his own sensations and gripping fears. He only omitted
the strange language used.
"But Défago surely had already told you all these
details of the Wendigo legend, my dear fellow," insisted the doctor.
"I mean, he had talked about it, and thus put into your mind the ideas
which your own excitement afterwards developed?"
Whereupon Simpson again repeated the facts. Défago, he
declared, had barely mentioned the beast. He, Simpson, knew nothing of the
story, and, so far as he remembered, had never even read about it. Even the
word was unfamiliar.
Of course he was telling the truth, and Dr. Cathcart was
reluctantly compelled to admit the singular character of the whole affair. He
did not do this in words so much as in manner, however. He kept his back
against a good, stout tree; he poked the fire into a blaze the moment it showed
signs of dying down; he was quicker than any of them to notice the least sound
in the night about them—a fish jumping in the lake, a twig snapping in the
bush, the dropping of occasional fragments of frozen snow from the branches
overhead where the heat loosened them. His voice, too, changed a little in
quality, becoming a shade less confident, lower also in tone. Fear, to put it
plainly, hovered close about that little camp, and though all three would have
been glad to speak of other matters, the only thing they seemed able to discuss
was this—the source of their fear. They tried other subjects in vain; there was
nothing to say about them. Hank was the most honest of the group; he said next
to nothing. He never once, however, turned his back to the darkness. His face
was always to the forest, and when wood was needed he didn't go farther than
was necessary to get it.
VII A wall of silence wrapped them in, for the snow, though
not thick, was sufficient to deaden any noise, and the frost held things pretty
tight besides. No sound but their voices and the soft roar of the flames made
itself heard. Only, from time to time, something soft as the flutter of a pine
moth's wings went past them through the air. No one seemed anxious to go to
bed. The hours slipped towards midnight.
"The legend is picturesque enough," observed the
doctor after one of the longer pauses, speaking to break it rather than because
he had anything to say, "for the Wendigo is simply the Call of the Wild
personified, which some natures hear to their own destruction."
"That's about it," Hank said presently. "An'
there's no misunderstandin' when you hear it. It calls you by name right
'nough."
Another pause followed. Then Dr. Cathcart came back to the
forbidden subject with a rush that made the others jump.
"The allegory is significant," he remarked,
looking about him into the darkness, "for the Voice, they say, resembles
all the minor sounds of the Bush—wind, falling water, cries of the animals, and
so forth. And, once the victim hears that—he's off for good, of course! His
most vulnerable points, moreover, are said to be the feet and the eyes; the feet,
you see, for the lust of wandering, and the eyes for the lust of beauty. The
poor beggar goes at such a dreadful speed that he bleeds beneath the eyes, and
his feet burn."
Dr. Cathcart, as he spoke, continued to peer uneasily into
the surrounding gloom. His voice sank to a hushed tone.
"The Wendigo," he added, "is said to burn his
feet—owing to the friction, apparently caused by its tremendous velocity—till
they drop off, and new ones form exactly like its own."
Simpson listened in horrified amazement; but it was the
pallor on Hank's face that fascinated him most. He would willingly have stopped
his ears and closed his eyes, had he dared.
"It don't always keep to the ground neither," came
in Hank's slow, heavy drawl, "for it goes so high that he thinks the stars
have set him all a-fire. An' it'll take great thumpin' jumps sometimes, an' run
along the tops of the trees, carrying its partner with it, an' then droppin'
him jest as a fish hawk'll drop a pickerel to kill it before eatin'. An' its
food, of all the muck in the whole Bush is—moss!" And he laughed a short,
unnatural laugh. "It's a moss-eater, is the Wendigo," he added,
looking up excitedly into the faces of his companions. "Moss-eater,"
he repeated, with a string of the most outlandish oaths he could invent.
But Simpson now understood the true purpose of all this
talk. What these two men, each strong and "experienced" in his own
way, dreaded more than anything else was—silence. They were talking against time.
They were also talking against darkness, against the invasion of panic, against
the admission reflection might bring that they were in an enemy's
country—against anything, in fact, rather than allow their inmost thoughts to
assume control. He himself, already initiated by the awful vigil with terror,
was beyond both of them in this respect. He had reached the stage where he was
immune. But these two, the scoffing, analytical doctor, and the honest, dogged
backwoodsman, each sat trembling in the depths of his being.
Thus the hours passed; and thus, with lowered voices and a
kind of taut inner resistance of spirit, this little group of humanity sat in
the jaws of the wilderness and talked foolishly of the terrible and haunting
legend. It was an unequal contest, all things considered, for the wilderness
had already the advantage of first attack—and of a hostage. The fate of their
comrade hung over them with a steadily increasing weight of oppression that
finally became insupportable.
It was Hank, after a pause longer than the preceding ones
that no one seemed able to break, who first let loose all this pent-up emotion
in very unexpected fashion, by springing suddenly to his feet and letting out
the most ear-shattering yell imaginable into the night. He could not contain
himself any longer, it seemed. To make it carry even beyond an ordinary cry he
interrupted its rhythm by shaking the palm of his hand before his mouth.
"That's for Défago," he said, looking down at the
other two with a queer, defiant laugh, "for it's my belief"—the
sandwiched oaths may be omitted—"that my ole partner's not far from us at
this very minute."
There was a vehemence and recklessness about his performance
that made Simpson, too, start to his feet in amazement, and betrayed even the
doctor into letting the pipe slip from between his lips. Hank's face was
ghastly, but Cathcart's showed a sudden weakness—a loosening of all his
faculties, as it were. Then a momentary anger blazed into his eyes, and he too,
though with deliberation born of habitual self-control, got upon his feet and
faced the excited guide. For this was unpermissible, foolish, dangerous, and he
meant to stop it in the bud.
What might have happened in the next minute or two one may
speculate about, yet never definitely know, for in the instant of profound
silence that followed Hank's roaring voice, and as though in answer to it,
something went past through the darkness of the sky overhead at terrific
speed—something of necessity very large, for it displaced much air, while down
between the trees there fell a faint and windy cry of a human voice, calling in
tones of indescribable anguish and appeal--
"Oh, oh! This fiery height! Oh, oh! My feet of fire! My
burning feet of fire!"
White to the very edge of his shirt, Hank looked stupidly
about him like a child. Dr. Cathcart uttered some kind of unintelligible cry,
turning as he did so with an instinctive movement of blind terror towards the
protection of the tent, then halting in the act as though frozen. Simpson,
alone of the three, retained his presence of mind a little. His own horror was
too deep to allow of any immediate reaction. He had heard that cry before.
Turning to his stricken companions, he said almost calmly--
"That's exactly the cry I heard—the very words he used!"
Then, lifting his face to the sky, he cried aloud,
"Défago, Défago! Come down here to us! Come down—!"
And before there was time for anybody to take definite
action one way or another, there came the sound of something dropping heavily
between the trees, striking the branches on the way down, and landing with a
dreadful thud upon the frozen earth below. The crash and thunder of it was
really terrific.
"That's him, s'help me the good Gawd!" came from
Hank in a whispering cry half choked, his hand going automatically toward the
hunting knife in his belt. "And he's coming! He's coming!" he added,
with an irrational laugh of horror, as the sounds of heavy footsteps crunching
over the snow became distinctly audible, approaching through the blackness
towards the circle of light.
And while the steps, with their stumbling motion, moved
nearer and nearer upon them, the three men stood round that fire, motionless
and dumb. Dr. Cathcart had the appearance of a man suddenly withered; even his
eyes did not move. Hank, suffering shockingly, seemed on the verge again of
violent action; yet did nothing. He, too, was hewn of stone. Like stricken
children they seemed. The picture was hideous. And, meanwhile, their owner
still invisible, the footsteps came closer, crunching the frozen snow. It was
endless—too prolonged to be quite real—this measured and pitiless approach. It was
accursed.
VIII Then at length the darkness, having thus laboriously
conceived, brought forth—a figure. It drew forward into the zone of uncertain
light where fire and shadows mingled, not ten feet away; then halted, staring
at them fixedly. The same instant it started forward again with the spasmodic
motion as of a thing moved by wires, and coming up closer to them, full into
the glare of the fire, they perceived then that—it was a man; and apparently
that this man was—Défago.
Something like a skin of horror almost perceptibly drew down
in that moment over every face, and three pairs of eyes shone through it as
though they saw across the frontiers of normal vision into the Unknown.
Défago advanced, his tread faltering and uncertain; he made
his way straight up to them as a group first, then turned sharply and peered
close into the face of Simpson. The sound of a voice issued from his lips--
"Here I am, Boss Simpson. I heered someone calling
me." It was a faint, dried up voice, made wheezy and breathless as by
immense exertion. "I'm havin' a reg'lar hellfire kind of a trip, I
am." And he laughed, thrusting his head forward into the other's face.
But that laugh started the machinery of the group of waxwork
figures with the wax-white skins. Hank immediately sprang forward with a stream
of oaths so farfetched that Simpson did not recognize them as English at all,
but thought he had lapsed into Indian or some other lingo. He only realized
that Hank's presence, thrust thus between them, was welcome—uncommonly welcome.
Dr. Cathcart, though more calmly and leisurely, advanced behind him, heavily
stumbling.
Simpson seems hazy as to what was actually said and done in
those next few seconds, for the eyes of that detestable and blasted visage
peering at such close quarters into his own utterly bewildered his senses at
first. He merely stood still. He said nothing. He had not the trained will of
the older men that forced them into action in defiance of all emotional stress.
He watched them moving as behind a glass that half destroyed their reality; it
was dreamlike; perverted. Yet, through the torrent of Hank's meaningless
phrases, he remembers hearing his uncle's tone of authority—hard and
forced—saying several things about food and warmth, blankets, whisky and the rest
... and, further, that whiffs of that penetrating, unaccustomed odor, vile yet
sweetly bewildering, assailed his nostrils during all that followed.
It was no less a person than himself, however—less
experienced and adroit than the others though he was—who gave instinctive
utterance to the sentence that brought a measure of relief into the ghastly
situation by expressing the doubt and thought in each one's heart.
"It is—YOU, isn't it, Défago?" he asked under his
breath, horror breaking his speech.
And at once Cathcart burst out with the loud answer before
the other had time to move his lips. "Of course it is! Of course it is!
Only—can't you see—he's nearly dead with exhaustion, cold and terror! Isn't
that enough to change a man beyond all recognition?" It was said in order
to convince himself as much as to convince the others. The overemphasis alone
proved that. And continually, while he spoke and acted, he held a handkerchief
to his nose. That odor pervaded the whole camp.
For the "Défago" who sat huddled by the big fire,
wrapped in blankets, drinking hot whisky and holding food in wasted hands, was
no more like the guide they had last seen alive than the picture of a man of
sixty is like a daguerreotype of his early youth in the costume of another generation.
Nothing really can describe that ghastly caricature, that parody, masquerading
there in the firelight as Défago. From the ruins of the dark and awful memories
he still retains, Simpson declares that the face was more animal than human,
the features drawn about into wrong proportions, the skin loose and hanging, as
though he had been subjected to extraordinary pressures and tensions. It made
him think vaguely of those bladder faces blown up by the hawkers on Ludgate
Hill, that change their expression as they swell, and as they collapse emit a
faint and wailing imitation of a voice. Both face and voice suggested some such
abominable resemblance. But Cathcart long afterwards, seeking to describe the
indescribable, asserts that thus might have looked a face and body that had
been in air so rarified that, the weight of atmosphere being removed, the
entire structure threatened to fly asunder and become--incoherent....
It was Hank, though all distraught and shaking with a
tearing volume of emotion he could neither handle nor understand, who brought
things to a head without much ado. He went off to a little distance from the
fire, apparently so that the light should not dazzle him too much, and shading
his eyes for a moment with both hands, shouted in a loud voice that held anger
and affection dreadfully mingled:
"You ain't Défaygo! You ain't Défaygo at all! I don't
give a—damn, but that ain't you, my ole pal of twenty years!" He glared
upon the huddled figure as though he would destroy him with his eyes. "An'
if it is I'll swab the floor of hell with a wad of cotton wool on a toothpick,
s'help me the good Gawd!" he added, with a violent fling of horror and
disgust.
It was impossible to silence him. He stood there shouting
like one possessed, horrible to see, horrible to hear--because it was the
truth. He repeated himself in fifty different ways, each more outlandish than
the last. The woods rang with echoes. At one time it looked as if he meant to
fling himself upon "the intruder," for his hand continually jerked
towards the long hunting knife in his belt.
But in the end he did nothing, and the whole tempest
completed itself very shortly with tears. Hank's voice suddenly broke, he
collapsed on the ground, and Cathcart somehow or other persuaded him at last to
go into the tent and lie quiet. The remainder of the affair, indeed, was
witnessed by him from behind the canvas, his white and terrified face peeping
through the crack of the tent door flap.
Then Dr. Cathcart, closely followed by his nephew who so far
had kept his courage better than all of them, went up with a determined air and
stood opposite to the figure of Défago huddled over the fire. He looked him
squarely in the face and spoke. At first his voice was firm.
"Défago, tell us what's happened—just a little, so that
we can know how best to help you?" he asked in a tone of authority, almost
of command. And at that point, it was command. At once afterwards, however, it
changed in quality, for the figure turned up to him a face so piteous, so
terrible and so little like humanity, that the doctor shrank back from him as
from something spiritually unclean. Simpson, watching close behind him, says he
got the impression of a mask that was on the verge of dropping off, and that
underneath they would discover something black and diabolical, revealed in
utter nakedness. "Out with it, man, out with it!" Cathcart cried,
terror running neck and neck with entreaty. "None of us can stand this
much longer ...!" It was the cry of instinct over reason.
And then "Défago," smiling whitely, answered in
that thin and fading voice that already seemed passing over into a sound of
quite another character--
"I seen that great Wendigo thing," he whispered,
sniffing the air about him exactly like an animal. "I been with it
too—"
Whether the poor devil would have said more, or whether Dr.
Cathcart would have continued the impossible cross examination cannot be known,
for at that moment the voice of Hank was heard yelling at the top of his voice
from behind the canvas that concealed all but his terrified eyes. Such a
howling was never heard.
"His feet! Oh, Gawd, his feet! Look at his great
changed—feet!"
Défago, shuffling where he sat, had moved in such a way that
for the first time his legs were in full light and his feet were visible. Yet
Simpson had no time, himself, to see properly what Hank had seen. And Hank has
never seen fit to tell. That same instant, with a leap like that of a frightened
tiger, Cathcart was upon him, bundling the folds of blanket about his legs with
such speed that the young student caught little more than a passing glimpse of
something dark and oddly massed where moccasined feet ought to have been, and
saw even that but with uncertain vision.
Then, before the doctor had time to do more, or Simpson time
to even think a question, much less ask it, Défago was standing upright in
front of them, balancing with pain and difficulty, and upon his shapeless and
twisted visage an expression so dark and so malicious that it was, in the true
sense, monstrous.
"Now you seen it too," he wheezed, "you seen
my fiery, burning feet! And now—that is, unless you kin save me an'
prevent—it's 'bout time for—"
His piteous and beseeching voice was interrupted by a sound
that was like the roar of wind coming across the lake. The trees overhead shook
their tangled branches. The blazing fire bent its flames as before a blast. And
something swept with a terrific, rushing noise about the little camp and seemed
to surround it entirely in a single moment of time. Défago shook the clinging
blankets from his body, turned towards the woods behind, and with the same
stumbling motion that had brought him—was gone: gone, before anyone could move
muscle to prevent him, gone with an amazing, blundering swiftness that left no
time to act. The darkness positively swallowed him; and less than a dozen
seconds later, above the roar of the swaying trees and the shout of the sudden
wind, all three men, watching and listening with stricken hearts, heard a cry
that seemed to drop down upon them from a great height of sky and distance--
"Oh, oh! This fiery height! Oh, oh! My feet of fire! My
burning feet of fire ...!" then died away, into untold space and silence.
Dr. Cathcart—suddenly master of himself, and therefore of
the others—was just able to seize Hank violently by the arm as he tried to dash
headlong into the Bush.
"But I want ter know,—you!" shrieked the guide.
"I want ter see! That ain't him at all, but some—devil that's shunted into
his place ...!"
Somehow or other—he admits he never quite knew how he
accomplished it—he managed to keep him in the tent and pacify him. The doctor,
apparently, had reached the stage where reaction had set in and allowed his own
innate force to conquer. Certainly he "managed" Hank admirably. It
was his nephew, however, hitherto so wonderfully controlled, who gave him most
cause for anxiety, for the cumulative strain had now produced a condition of
lachrymose hysteria which made it necessary to isolate him upon a bed of boughs
and blankets as far removed from Hank as was possible under the circumstances.
And there he lay, as the watches of that haunted night
passed over the lonely camp, crying startled sentences, and fragments of
sentences, into the folds of his blanket. A quantity of gibberish about speed
and height and fire mingled oddly with biblical memories of the classroom. "People
with broken faces all on fire are coming at a most awful, awful, pace towards
the camp!" he would moan one minute; and the next would sit up and stare
into the woods, intently listening, and whisper, "How terrible in the
wilderness are—are the feet of them that—" until his uncle came across the
change the direction of his thoughts and comfort him.
The hysteria, fortunately, proved but temporary. Sleep cured
him, just as it cured Hank.
Till the first signs of daylight came, soon after five
o'clock, Dr. Cathcart kept his vigil. His face was the color of chalk, and
there were strange flushes beneath the eyes. An appalling terror of the soul
battled with his will all through those silent hours. These were some of the
outer signs ...
At dawn he lit the fire himself, made breakfast, and woke
the others, and by seven they were well on their way back to the home
camp—three perplexed and afflicted men, but each in his own way having reduced
his inner turmoil to a condition of more or less systematized order again.
IX They talked little, and then only of the most wholesome
and common things, for their minds were charged with painful thoughts that
clamoured for explanation, though no one dared refer to them. Hank, being
nearest to primitive conditions, was the first to find himself, for he was also
less complex. In Dr. Cathcart "civilization" championed his forces
against an attack singular enough. To this day, perhaps, he is not quite sure
of certain things. Anyhow, he took longer to "find himself."
Simpson, the student of divinity, it was who arranged his
conclusions probably with the best, though not most scientific, appearance of
order. Out there, in the heart of unreclaimed wilderness, they had surely
witnessed something crudely and essentially primitive. Something that had
survived somehow the advance of humanity had emerged terrifically, betraying a
scale of life still monstrous and immature. He envisaged it rather as a glimpse
into prehistoric ages, when superstitions, gigantic and uncouth, still
oppressed the hearts of men; when the forces of nature were still untamed, the
Powers that may have haunted a primeval universe not yet withdrawn. To this day
he thinks of what he termed years later in a sermon "savage and formidable
Potencies lurking behind the souls of men, not evil perhaps in themselves, yet
instinctively hostile to humanity as it exists."
With his uncle he never discussed the matter in detail, for
the barrier between the two types of mind made it difficult. Only once, years
later, something led them to the frontier of the subject—of a single detail of
the subject, rather--
"Can't you even tell me what--they were like?" he
asked; and the reply, though conceived in wisdom, was not encouraging, "It
is far better you should not try to know, or to find out."
"Well—that odour...?" persisted the nephew.
"What do you make of that?"
Dr. Cathcart looked at him and raised his eyebrows.
"Odours," he replied, "are not so easy as
sounds and sights of telepathic communication. I make as much, or as little,
probably, as you do yourself."
He was not quite so glib as usual with his explanations.
That was all.
At the fall of day, cold, exhausted, famished, the party
came to the end of the long portage and dragged themselves into a camp that at
first glimpse seemed empty. Fire there was none, and no Punk came forward to
welcome them. The emotional capacity of all three was too over-spent to
recognize either surprise or annoyance; but the cry of spontaneous affection
that burst from the lips of Hank, as he rushed ahead of them towards the
fire-place, came probably as a warning that the end of the amazing affair was
not quite yet. And both Cathcart and his nephew confessed afterwards that when
they saw him kneel down in his excitement and embrace something that reclined,
gently moving, beside the extinguished ashes, they felt in their very bones
that this "something" would prove to be Défago—the true Défago,
returned.
And so, indeed, it was.
It is soon told. Exhausted to the point of emaciation, the
French Canadian—what was left of him, that is—fumbled among the ashes, trying
to make a fire. His body crouched there, the weak fingers obeying feebly the
instinctive habit of a lifetime with twigs and matches. But there was no longer
any mind to direct the simple operation. The mind had fled beyond recall. And
with it, too, had fled memory. Not only recent events, but all previous life
was a blank.
This time it was the real man, though incredibly and
horribly shrunken. On his face was no expression of any kind whatever—fear,
welcome, or recognition. He did not seem to know who it was that embraced him,
or who it was that fed, warmed and spoke to him the words of comfort and
relief. Forlorn and broken beyond all reach of human aid, the little man did
meekly as he was bidden. The "something" that had constituted him
"individual" had vanished for ever.
In some ways it was more terribly moving than anything they
had yet seen—that idiot smile as he drew wads of coarse moss from his swollen
cheeks and told them that he was "a damned moss-eater"; the continued
vomiting of even the simplest food; and, worst of all, the piteous and childish
voice of complaint in which he told them that his feet pained him—"burn
like fire"—which was natural enough when Dr. Cathcart examined them and
found that both were dreadfully frozen. Beneath the eyes there were faint
indications of recent bleeding.
The details of how he survived the prolonged exposure, of
where he had been, or of how he covered the great distance from one camp to the
other, including an immense detour of the lake on foot since he had no
canoe—all this remains unknown. His memory had vanished completely. And before
the end of the winter whose beginning witnessed this strange occurrence,
Défago, bereft of mind, memory and soul, had gone with it. He lingered only a
few weeks.
And what Punk was able to contribute to the story throws no
further light upon it. He was cleaning fish by the lake shore about five o'clock
in the evening—an hour, that is, before the search party returned—when he saw
this shadow of the guide picking its way weakly into camp. In advance of him,
he declares, came the faint whiff of a certain singular odour.
That same instant old Punk started for home. He covered the
entire journey of three days as only Indian blood could have covered it. The
terror of a whole race drove him. He knew what it all meant. Défago had
"seen the Wendigo."
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